2011 was a really horrible year in so many ways for so many people. I personally know a number of people for whom it was easily the worst year of their lives, myself included.
I do believe that the tide may finally be turning. I feel in a way that a black cloud is lifting. Maybe it's just my imagination, but I really don't think so.
On the other hand, surviving the first year after the loss of you child is in itself an accomplishment and a relief. There is nothing that can compare to the early raw emotions, the prolonged and enduring sadness, the heaviness of the all of the "firsts" without your baby. Further, I did not have the comfort of the promise of a new life while passing each milestone. We have faced many challenges that would provide material for another blog altogether. And amazingly, I survived anyway.
This year, I have already decided, will be different. Will be... good? Can I actually go so far as to say that? Yes, I still miss my sweet Angeline every minute of every day. I always will, but I have to find happiness, joy, excitement and other good things here in this live without her. I am grateful to be surrounded by living angels here on earth who lift me up, day in and day out. They have convinced me that there are better times ahead.
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This will definitely be a beautiful year full of joy, love and healing for you. xo
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